Wednesday, December 8, 2004
It's been a month !
I didn't realize so much time had passed since I' ve been able to write. And there's too many little things that have happened in all that time. I've pretty much lived the same daily existence, but a few things come to mind: First, my sister Bethamy had a beautiful baby boy, so I have another nephew Brian Layne Wilson. My birthday was a couple of weeks ago. George took me out for a nice romantic dinner and was completely wonderful to me. It was one of the best birthdays I've ever had. However, birthdays are really truly freaking me out right now. I can't let another birthday go by without really figuring out how I am going to juggle my life, new up-coming career, and the possibility of trying to have children. It's been hitting me lately just how unfairly the male vs. female reproductive age has been set up by whomever is in charge of this universe. If there is a God, here's yet another reason why I am convinced God is Male. God is a bit sexist in too many ways to count. I feel and look a lot younger than my years. I really want to be able to have more than a couple more years to decide something with such a huge impact on my life. I've been completely unable to consider a family before now. My life until I met George just wouldn't have accommodated a child. It's wonderful that I finally have met the man of my dreams, and yet I am incredibly sad that it didn't happen 10 years ago, or even 5. Of course 10 years ago, I wouldn't have appreciated him, and since I kind of robbed the cradle, he wouldn't have been ready then. He was barely past drinking age. Now that's a funny thought. Well, that was quite a rabbit trail from my original opening words, but my birthday, and the subsequent pre holiday shopping and Christmas get togethers have kept me at a steady run since I last posted a blog. I hope everyone's having a great December.
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3 comments:
Jessie I can only say that if you have children you will have a feeling that I cant express. I do hope you had a Merry Christmas and that 2005 is good to you. john
I've been really awful about my blog too - today was the first post since the end of November.
It isn't just women... although I understand your concerns are more immediate. I'm realizing that if I had a kid born a year from now I would be 55 when they graduated from high school and hitting sixty when they graduated (hopefully) from college.
While I might be physically capable of producing progeny until I'm very very old, that still leaves me to wonder how well I'm going to handle a teenager when I'm heading toward retirement...
You would make, I'm quite sure, a far far better than average parent if you decide to do it. You're intelligent, fair and open minded. Those qualities alone are pretty uncommon. George is a pretty good guy too, based on the couple of hours I've seen of him. You could've done a lot worse, but you know that.
=)
whoohoo???!!! still there??!! Hope all is well...Happy New Year!
~JerseyGirl
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